Thanks for your prayers. Please keep them coming. I know that there's another option to suicide. Honestly, since I've grown up in the church, I really don't care about Christ's Name, because of the misrepresentation from churchgoers, whose ignorance involves witnessing to me about Christ because they think that I've lied about my family, have left church, and can't imagine me being abused. Plus, they judge my intelligence based on how I sound and how young I look. Even though I'm candid, my candidacy is seen as a joke or being voiced from stupidity/from not knowing any better. I'm almost 40. At one point, I've tried negotiating with my family before trying to get help. Years have gone by and nothing. Church people were like, " That's normal." while some extended family members were like, " That wasn't meant to be said. You'll be okay."
The empty-nest syndrome is prevalent, along with anxiety and depression amongst my parents.